Now What?

So, I’ve recently graduated from university – as in less than one week ago. And now, EVERY SINGLE time I cross the path of people I know – friends, family, fellow recent grads, old people and young people, I get asked the question “Now what?”

And all I have to say to that is ENOUGH already. Well, if that’s all I had to say this wouldn’t be much of a blog…

I think it is sad that we live in a society that pressures individuals to aspire to something ASAP. Sure, I have goals in life and I want to make something of myself, but I’m in no hurry to start working for the rest of my life. These people who are asking me now are the ones who have gotten sucked into the trap of a socially constructed life – of going to highschool, uni/college, getting a job, getting married, having kids and settling down in a house with a white picket fence. Though there is nothing wrong with this, right now that is not what I want in my life. Right now I want to explore. I want to live life. I don’t want to find myself behind a desk job that starts now and ends indefinitely.

And that brings me to planning. If I have a 1 year plan, a 5 year plan, a 30 year plan, what kind of life is that? That’s boring to me. A life full of planned tasks – of working and working and working – that’s not life at all.

Now, while I’m young, I want to take advantage of this planet. I want to read for my own pleasure, travel on my own accord. I’m sick of being asked now what – what do you want to be, what do you want to do, what ARE you going to do NOW. What does it matter to you anyways? You can rub in that you’ve ”found” yourself, and I still don’t know what the hell I want to do right now? What’s the matter with that anyways. Always a rush rush rush. — Why not any pausing and reflecting?

So now what? I don’t know and I’m fine with that.

From Toothpaste for Dinner

Today was a Pessimistic Day

Today was a pessimistic day. Today I came to terms with an over abundance of ignorance in humans. Though I already know that many are ignorant, my conversation with a friend today gave me further proof.

A friend asked me why someone we knew was not going home for Easter. I responded that she was Jewish. My friend said, “so that means she doesn’t celebrate Easter?” I said, no, Jews don’t believe in Jesus as their God. And she responded: “so no Easter” and I said “no…”

This leads me to believe that a) she just is ignorant on other religions or b) she doesn’t actually understand the religious background behind the festivity of Easter – instead it’s just a family gathering involving food, easter eggs and a bunny. Everyone could thus celebrate Easter in her opinion, since it’s not religious at all. However, Easter in actuality is a profoundly religious event. In other words it’s an excuse to eat dinner with her family.

This brings me to another issue in its entirety whereby religious holidays have become secular to the point where they should not even exist in some individual’s lives. But this topic for another day.

Perhaps in grade one we all need to learn basic world religions to understand that not everybody is the same. Instead, people live in a bubble where they believe everyone is like themselves. It’s a sad world we live in.

It will never seize to amaze me how ignorant people can be.

P.S. I’m not saying I’m a know it all, I’m just open to understanding that humans are not all the same.

P.S.S. I know you’re reading this and I invite you to please, please, please comment.

This is it

Everyone in this world wants their voice to be heard. Deep down everyone is after their 15 minutes of fame. No one wants to be forgotten after they’ve died, everyone wants their memory left behind in one way or another. Many of us have attempted to do this through blogging, and it looks as though I’m jumping on the bandwagon.

I have recently come to terms with the fact that I can be considered as an optimistic-pessimist. I seek out happiness, but I know half of the world has gone to shit. Day in and out I see people do stupid things – human nature is basically crap.

We spend half of our lives attempting to ascertain the meaning of it all. Some write books, philosophies, climb mountains, others travel, have families, explore food, pleasure, sex, others aspire to their dream jobs and get stuck in a corporate rut. We’re all stubborn by nature, stuck in our values and beliefs. Take what you will from mine. I still have a list of things to do before I die, clearly I am after meaning as well. Yet at 21, I’ve accomplished few of these, stuck in the rut of Western societal pressures and values to get an education followed by a career.

Deep inside, something else inside of me wants to get out, and these ideas and minor epiphanies will be shared here in my attempt to get meaning from it all.

So in this blog, I will write what I see, what I think, commentating on all aspects of life. This is my story and this is what I want.

This blog is for you corporate buggers, lost souls, clock in-clock out, making a living to settle down people. Or anyone who is curious about what I have to say. Hell if I know all the answers, but it doesn’t hurt to try.

I’m not going to say yes to everything, or leave behind passive-aggressive notes, fuck my life comments, or share life changing secrets. Read if you want, listen if you can, and I invite you to comment with some optimistic and pessimistic advice.

This is an optimistic pessimist’s outlook on life. Human nature sucks. Enjoy.