Now What?

So, I’ve recently graduated from university – as in less than one week ago. And now, EVERY SINGLE time I cross the path of people I know – friends, family, fellow recent grads, old people and young people, I get asked the question “Now what?”

And all I have to say to that is ENOUGH already. Well, if that’s all I had to say this wouldn’t be much of a blog…

I think it is sad that we live in a society that pressures individuals to aspire to something ASAP. Sure, I have goals in life and I want to make something of myself, but I’m in no hurry to start working for the rest of my life. These people who are asking me now are the ones who have gotten sucked into the trap of a socially constructed life – of going to highschool, uni/college, getting a job, getting married, having kids and settling down in a house with a white picket fence. Though there is nothing wrong with this, right now that is not what I want in my life. Right now I want to explore. I want to live life. I don’t want to find myself behind a desk job that starts now and ends indefinitely.

And that brings me to planning. If I have a 1 year plan, a 5 year plan, a 30 year plan, what kind of life is that? That’s boring to me. A life full of planned tasks – of working and working and working – that’s not life at all.

Now, while I’m young, I want to take advantage of this planet. I want to read for my own pleasure, travel on my own accord. I’m sick of being asked now what – what do you want to be, what do you want to do, what ARE you going to do NOW. What does it matter to you anyways? You can rub in that you’ve ”found” yourself, and I still don’t know what the hell I want to do right now? What’s the matter with that anyways. Always a rush rush rush. — Why not any pausing and reflecting?

So now what? I don’t know and I’m fine with that.

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